Sarah Harding admits quitting cocaine was a ‘do or die’ situation as she recalls first time she tried the drug

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Sarah Harding has discussed her battle with cocaine addiction in her heartbreaking autobiography, which documents her ongoing cancer fight.

The 39 year old's book Hear Me Out, which is out now, reveals how she has been told by doctors that she probably won't see another Christmas, and that she nearly died from sepsis after her cancer diagnosis, being placed into a coma for two weeks.

Girls Aloud singer Sarah has also spoken out on how giving up cocaine was "do or die" before she retreated to a rehab facility in South Africa.

Writing in the memoir, Sarah reveals it was a friend of her ex-boyfriend Calum Best who first introduced her to the Class A drug.

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In an excerpt of the book, published by Metro, Sarah writes: "I could see the powder on the table, so I walked over and looked down at it. F**k it, I thought, what's good for the goose and all that.

"Once the deed was done, Calum got really angry. 'Thanks a lot,' he shouted at his friend. 'She was the one unspoilt, innocent thing in my life'.

"I chimed in, 'No it's not her fault, you lot have all been doing it every time we're out so why shouldn't I?' That was my first taste, and it had taken quite a while."

However, she started using drugs and alcohol more heavily after breaking up from fiancé Tom Crane in 2011, just six months before their wedding.

She says: "I was on a treadmill of booze, sleeping pills and drugs if they were around. Anything to numb the pain.

"If something really bad had happened to me, it most definitely would have been then. I realised then that it was literally a case of do or die, and I knew I had to take action."

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Sarah goes on to admit she was "dragged" out of the car at the airport to make sure that she checked in to the South African facility, which she booked for herself.

Despite her use of drugs, she insists that she didn't "go down the dark route" of trying other Class A drugs.

"Drugs like ketamine and crystal meth scared the life out of me," she continues to write.

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In more positive news, Sarah does reveal in the book that her tumours have shrunk due to her chemotherapy treatment.

In an excerpt obtained by the Daily Star, she writes: "Before I put this book to bed, I wanted to share a little bit of positive news.

"MRI scans at the end of December revealed that the tumours in my brain and in my lung have shrunk a bit with the treatment."

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